不再见

After giving it much thought, I've decided to move out from this site of mine.
Thank you for checking in here all this while, very very much appreciate it.
Due to some reasons, these posts in the pasts will still be kept here.
However, it'll not be updated anymore from now.
Thank you for giving links to this site, and it can now to be un-linked.
Again, thank you for concerns all this while.

See yea :)

Sincerely, zixin －22/2/2012



一路走过也想了很多事情，只觉得藏在深处那个驿动的生命好像注定此生漂浮。
现实中，或许很难做到突然消失在某地然后却突然在另某某地出现。
这虚拟的国度里，有我自己做的国王王后和我的宇宙定律，只要我愿意，我随时被允许开溜。

是的，我决定搬家了。墙角的阿懒 （就是那只树懒）也带走啦。
这里将不会再有任何更新的张贴，所以若有 "follow" 或 "link to" 这个地址的朋友，请您可以删掉了。
虽然会来这里敲门的访客不多，但依旧惯例，还是要说上一番感谢的话。
谢谢一路过来遇到的人遇见的事，谢谢所有的厚爱；
不论是相识的，还是路人甲，谢谢。

基于一些原因，不想把这里毁了让它凭空消失。
所以决定让这两三年的记事慢慢腐化成回忆，封锁在这角落。
等到灰尘铺张，直到有一天我忘了这头家的帐号密码，甚至忘了回家的路，或许才会想要回来看看（看看十九岁的我到底写了什么鬼东西）；却不得而入了。

等等……晃晃悠悠……到哪里去好呢？唔……我再想想。

最近不小心路过五月天阿信曾经居住的秘密基地，那里有一个舒服的他——在他的晒衣场；在晒得半干的衣服旁，他讀書、發呆、無所事事，順便晒一晒那个他说总是发霉的半边心脏。好喜欢在那里兜兜转转，摸摸半干的衣服，吹吹风。

噢对，我给自己取了小名叫阿幸；说不定哪天您会路过我的新宅然后发现这个叫阿幸的懒崽正把自己晒在晾杆上。（对啦，就跟“阿信”是谐音啦）

衣服曬乾，風在穿，心情變的很蔚藍。
我一個人，很簡單，自己放縱自己管。 ——五月天阿信
（很实在地用在我身上）

再见！（或许不再见）


阿幸 —— 公元2012年2月22日

放声唱(笑)

跟两个很哈五月天的朋友去了趟槟城唱K，两天签订下的约。没有太多的感觉跟思绪，打算唱它个痛快就对了。

然后认识两个新朋友。四个老油粘在一起的时候是鸡鸣兔叫（谁有听过兔叫？），气氛很是热闹，画面甚是超级娱乐性；

（一）猪
有个家族生意在老街场——老字号：著名肉骨茶（据说猪肉的供应是由这个小少爷身上刮下来的）。猪本身简直是娱乐节目的代言人，不止一人可以担任两个角色，说话娱乐大家，制造笑点，一路从SP直下槟岛打三个弯回到SP都没有停过。

（二）兔子
促成这次约会的功臣。之前认识的他在今天的行程中完全消失，无影无踪；跟着一群猪朋狗友一起嚎叫，疯疯癫癫一整天。

（三）猪头
很有义气的免费司机。原本把我们载到gurney的red box；结果因为敌不过猪的百般撒娇拜托（外加斥骂跟拳打脚踢），从槟岛的左兜回右，去到1st avenue。（结果一样是red box；猪讲这里比较爽）

（四）鸡
后来才加入的禽友。错过唱K的时段，唯有在车上拼了命对上猪头CD里的每一首歌，唱《我期待》尤其厉害，吓死人的KEY竟然也上得到。


晚餐吃了六十块的自助餐：道（TAO）。假的鲍鱼片吃得我好满足。外加四只动物的娱乐对话跟肢体语言，我一半吃饱另一半笑饱。

回程的路上也没有一刻安宁；爆笑的频率可以是每两分钟一次。就像他们自己说的，四只动物聚在一起产生的化学作用无可抵挡。

我过上了很满足的一天。沙哑的声音一半是唱到哑另外一半是笑到哑。
很高兴认识到大家 :)

可以这样无遮掩的爆笑一整天真的很幸福。




Never have thought of getting know to these guys, fun and funny. Together with them, you can laugh all day long. We sang and we laughed; we shouted when we sang and we laughed at anything, it's just too entertaining to be with them. Glad to know you guys, thank you for the day ：）

My brother got himself a Sennheiser. Me so envy.

I WANT DRE

-^-

I AM BORED.

I should stop entertaining my emotions

MY mother just woke up from A sleep and before she went for ANOTHER sleep, she asked me to shut my laptop, off MY father's streamyx router, the light and to go to bed. I will,later.


These are people who shared the same workplace with me in these 2 years and we had struggled through the super peak period of CNY together. We became friends and they gave me a great journey which I am sure I'll miss it one day.

We had a gathering at Mr Hee's house today and made ourselves steamboat for the whole day consumption. The photo is the only thing left at the end of the day.

And why is it in such green-ish colour?

Because hor..

Someone told me that the space between them were reserved for us that were absent.

People,
I am VERY FREE now. pls, don't come and kacau my feelings. I get emo very easily when life is not busy (too free to entertain my emotions). *I was busy entertaining my emotions that I didn't even what to leave on comments*

And, hours ago, when I was steamboat-ing, pieces of memories came back in mind. Remember that night ?

What to do? I stop working now and it is 1 month to go before the class starts, I am too FREE.

CNY 2012

I locked myself in the house right on the 3rd day of CNY in this year of 2012. While most the buddies are at oversea, this CNY seems to be very quiet. Yea, I missed some of the friends' gathering yesterday and the day before that simply because I spent those time with the families. Paiseh la guys :b

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走过了从前，才懂得珍惜每一天。 －－－－ 《开心过年》
That is one of the lyrics in the 'very hot' song during this year of dragon. It says: we went through those yesterdays and that's why we learn to appreciate today's'. Nah, I love that one.

No matter how desperate I am to be back on those olden days, it'll never happen. And sometimes, no matter how seriously I appreciate the moments that I have now, somehow I know I'll still miss them someday.

Look at us. Years gone by and we grew up.

很多很多的话语梗在喉咙实在吐不出。
或许，那些很多很多的话语跟很浓很浓的感觉早就被我们埋藏在很多很多年前那个我们窝一起睡觉的夜晚；或许，就藏在那张床褥的下面； 等待有一天我们拿出来回味。一起长大的人儿啊，我很想念你们 :)

終究會　有一天　我們都變成昨天 是你　陪我走過　一生一回　匆匆的人間 有一天　就是今天　今天就是有一天 說出一直沒說　對你的感謝　和你再乾一杯 再乾一杯永遠　喝了就能萬歲　歲歲和年年 --------五月天《干杯》

第二人生

I wish to tell about my recent life but nothing is coming into my mind. Don't worry, I'm doing good. and I hope you do so.

Happy New Year.




夜过11点钟，我把亲爱的阿德（阿德是一辆汽车）给泊在屋前的树下；阿德年已过二十几，日本科技打造，比我还要有历史价值。钥匙在锁孔里把门锁上，我拍拍阿德的窗口说：辛苦了。

家人为我留了盏灯。屋子的木门紧闭着，眼看像是大家都在房间里，客厅、二厅和饭厅的白光灯都没亮。脚底的步伐有点沉重，开门的节奏有点参差不齐，突然期待有人替我等门。

洗过脸刷了牙，11点半。打开电脑，萤幕的下边标着“20/1/2012”。

这应该是一个多好的新年。2012，世界还没有末日，五月天还在，李民浩跟你还有我都还在。

去年，我过的很精彩。
人生头一回坐飞机，去了一趟澳洲做了两个星期的洋人，玩的很开心。
我热切爱上海贼王，开始学习让自己爱上生活，练习期待每一天不一样的冒险跟体验；然后给自己种下一颗叫做“信念”的种子。
五月天的第二人生赶在传说中的末日前发行，打着诺亚方舟的型号启航。当然，我紧跟着登机，没有一丝眷恋。
这一个2011虽说很多姿多彩，却也保留许多有待改进的空间。我没有很满意自己的成长，许多方面都有待进修；体重的增长却是令人十分讨厌。
今年，我想要过的更满意些。


Second Round，第二人生

人生可以熱烈如一場拳擊，也可以輕盈如一場遊戲;

這個回合輸了，下個回合再起。

－五月天阿信

新年快乐。

Back at home town

Just fetch Stef at the bus stop, 11 o'clock at night, back from KL. Then, we had a little chat while she having her supper at the nasi lemak stall (rm2 for 3 packets, I wonder how they make their profit).

Oi, STEVE OOI, it is your job to drive her okay..;only if u were back here. and all others out there, remember our night-routines? I'm back at hometown for few days, dislike Stef, it's my looong,long,loooooong summer break >:) yet, the empty-ness just fell on when I drove Stef across the town, passing by the hang-out spots..dot dot dot..and dot dot dot..and dot dot dot..



Photo taken during the ran-away off to Melacca. looks a little bit odd, wasn't it? some friends suggested some editing to make it looks more emo-ish. neh, I tried..and this is what I can do best :b

Stefanie, one of the only few persons I know I can rely on in this whole damn world. Perhaps, we don't keep in contact very often, less messaging, less skype, less FB msg; perhaps, she may not be right beside me when I am down, panic, sad; and neither do I stand by her side when she is in need. But she is my best friend, what to do? I am always grateful to have a buddie like her; just like those we have always seen in the loves-drama (Korean especially), the main actress and her best friend....alright, alright, I watched too much drama recently.

Should I...learn from this photo? next time, to take this kinna photo, I should/ or I have to tilt the head a little bit and move the body aside a little bit, just like how the other girl looked like in the photo. Perhaps, the emo-effects will be better ?let's try next time.

11.11.11

11.11.11; without noticing, we went out for the post exam-celebration on that very day. If it was not because of the friends and what we did on that day, that very day would be just as normal as every single day always be. No/never a date is ever be repeated, every date is special by its own and with someone doing something on that someday, that very date becomes meaningful.

We had fun, we had joy, we had laughter. We enjoyed that day very much, didn't we? If you were not, at least I was. I really love your accompanies, sincerely.

Something comes along and something went by. When we were having fun, we never know what is going to happen at the next moment. Two of us had decided to leave the house and to stay a little nearer to the Uni. Believe it or not, we never have the plan to cause troubles to others who stay. But, troubles caused and I am not able to pretend as if nothing happens. So I try, I try my best to minimize the consequences that come along. To blame or not to blame, I can't control; but to do what I can do at this far. If someone were to ask the reasons for what I've done at the first place, all I can tell is just: I did that for my own good. Selfish? perhaps, I am. I'm sorry for if it hurts anyone.

Wish all happiness and happy holiday;
Sincerely.

2nd last paper

Gonna pray hard to pass my Cell Metabolism. But if it was not because of her, I don't even have a single chance to pass. Sometimes, I feel as if I've let somebody down; I should do better. It has been long since the last time I had this kinna thought.

Last paper coming tomorrow. Faster finish la.

Faster finish la.

Days are black and white during this exam period. Sucks. Neh -,- can't wait to get the last paper done. Hm, don't take me wrong; I havn't ready yet for the 2 upcoming papers. Argh. I miss the colours.

愚驿

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

这篇章是分开打的，所以可能会有上文不接下文的现象出现(……我好像每次都没有连接性的打字）。本来不应该在这里发闷骚，可是我已经眼钉钉（奇怪的用词。。有很奇怪吗？）对着电脑萤幕两个多小时，该丢进脑袋的cell metabolism一个字也没读进去。呵……到底怎么了。耳朵可能真的被耳屎塞满了，现在什么都听不进去；除了……（对啦，我知道你知道我下面要讲什么，可是我还是要讲）……五月天。

真是的。
i love mayday.yes, i do.

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跟着游戏规则，我忙着学着成长；每次雨后都会期待着彩虹，所以我打开了窗，却只看到窗外的灼熱闪光；所谓的彩虹不過就只是光嘛。如果给我选个笔名，就给我叫《愚驿》；我想我会很喜欢这个名字。

……老爸之前也是有个笔名，像是叫《山同》还是“山……什么的”；明天好好问问他。

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干它赛的，为什么不来马来西亚上映呐。

给电影人的情书

多少人爱你遗留银幕的风采；多少人爱你遗世独立的姿态
你永远的童真 赤子的心态；孤芳自赏的无奈
谁明白你细心隐藏的悲哀；谁瞭解你褪色脸上的缅怀
你天衣无缝的瀟洒 心底的害怕；慢慢渗出了苍白；
你苦苦地追求永恒；生活却颠簸 无常 遗憾
你傻傻地追求完美；却一直给误会 给伤害 给放弃 给责备
何悲 何爱 何必去愁与苦，何必笑骂恨与爱
人间不过是你寄身之处，银河里才是你灵魂的徜徉地
人间不过是你无形的梦，偶然留下的梦 尘世梦

以身外身 做梦银亮色的梦
以身外身 做梦中梦

给电影人的情书－蔡琴

以身外身，笑看人生梦中银亮色的梦。有几个人能真的做到。若这真的是梦一场，何必为痛苦不愉快的事情太认真？

何悲 何爱 何必去愁与苦，何必笑骂恨与爱
人间不过是你寄身之处，银河里才是你灵魂的徜徉地
人间不过是你无形的梦，偶然留下的梦 尘世梦

若这是梦中无限可能的虚幻，为何不对那些坚持的执着更放肆些？

For another 6 days, my Year2Semester 1 will officially come to an end. With the last paper of Final examination, everything that I learn in Year2 will end there. When I walk out the examination hall, will I be crying or will I smile? I got no idea.

This is a hard semester. For 4 months, my life was filled with assignments, tests, reports, experiments and now the examinations. For all students, it is a norm, isn't it? To say that I suffer a lot, is it really true? All students have assignments; all students sit for exams, what the hell on earth that YOU have the excuse to say 'suffer'? And what are YOU complaining about??

The only difference between all students and I will always be the ways we treat the tasks, the attitudes. Have YOU done what YOU should be doing all this while? Did YOU really do? I've been always telling myself to change, to improve, to be a better man. But did YOU make it? Did YOU ever mean what YOU said? When time flies, when things can't be turned around, I will tell myself not to look back, but to look forward. I believe I learn lessons and that I will never ever walk on the same path. YOU really do? If it is so, what happen now? Why are YOU here??

I don't like this and neither YOU. So I tell YOU to stop it. But can YOU ?


original singer: Teresa Teng.

Grave of Fireflies

要坚强。要成长。

Each time when I read the PM message I left on the MSN account,
I'll take a deep breath and lay a pat on my shoulder;
"see, you gonna be much better soon"
Then, I draw a big smile on my face, from ear to ear :)

A leap to Malacca

Malacca Town

Like all people say, it is a historical town where you usually will go to see the red house, museums, some left over stones and bricks from last century so and so bla and bla. Well, that is not the main point of what I want to tell. Malacca, to me, is a place full of FOOD ! yes, FOOD FOOD !!

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

This Stefanie, nothing good, besides kuat rayau and kuat makan. First thing I met her at the Jonker Street, she brought me the chicken rice balls. Proudly said, she was manage to get herself and Sahan the treat after a super super long queue. As I reached Malacca a little bit late after them (I was supposed to be joining them at the Bandar Tasik Selatan bus terminal to take the same bus down to Malacca Sentral but I woke up late in the morning, so..dot dot dot..and you know la har), she so thoughtfully to da bao 5 balls of the rice and few pieces of the chicken, leave it up for me. Aww..so nice. *although I feel that it is famous only for the 'ball' shape of the rice, not really for the taste of it*

Later on, we moved on to tract food along the town. Not going into details. This was one of it: the Satay Celup. Well....you see, the queue was super super super duper long and worst, it was static ! people going in the shop and take their time celup celup eat and eat; It took about half an hour to move few centimeters in front. So, we gave up and went in another shop which I supposed not famous because there was no queue (people) at all. But, it was still the satay celup. Hence, we tried the so called satay celup although it was not really that famous celup. And I found it okay okay la, it was a little bit like our Penang Lok Lok.

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

Then, we went back to Jonker Street and when it was at night, muahahaha...hohohoho......food food food....there was food everywhere ! One of the food that I tried: the Durian Puffs; Awww....it was so yummy ! I love it ~! Gonna get a bite on it if I happened to get back to Malacca :)

It was quite a random trip you see. We got no plan and no particular place to go. Only thing we hold on to: We eat anywhere we can :b

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

Aww..I met GiGi (I supposed to be spelled like this) in the public city bus while I was on my way to the Red House. And then we made friends. Hahax. Could you imagine, she is just 19, and she is on her 3-months' travel ! she has gone to Singapore, Penang; and will move to Hatyai, Sri Lanka and bla bla..(not to forget, Sahan is from Sri Langka and this cute boy is just 18 !) Damn sad, me and Stef were the oldest, and I am even older than Stef !

It was GiGi's 19th birthday that day, and so we sang a loud Happy Birthday song for her in the middle of the road !


okay..I've done quite a lot of crazy things over the day. I even went in the Church (St Francis Xavier’s Church) for the very 1st time and made a lot of stories out from there, don't bother to say it here. And finally, we reached Pudu in the middle of the night. End of the day. I played my day and enjoyed their accompany :)

Should get back to study now. The people around me are getting scary when exams are around the corner. huhaiz......

Malacca was pretty at night

----Praying hard that my mum will not kill me when she knows this.




Despite all the stress and worries for the Finals (which will be in a week's time), I went to Malacca. By bus by random and with random friends :b

Will come back for more after I do some studies.











photo by zixin, Malacca, 23Oct2011

hi, Peter.

I used to be falling asleep, wishing that he would ever come to my window.



Peter..~ flying over the sky and bring me along to his Neverland..~fighting over the evil Hook and laugh over the tickering crocodile.. he was the superhero of mine. Even now, he is still the little boy whom I believe is flying around somewhere in the sky of Neverland. Once a while, he may be visiting my world. But he won't stay for too long, just long enough for me to say Hi.



But Peter had never come to my window, as my mum will not let the window open when I sleep. If I open my window, will you come visit me, Peter? and I'll like to meet Tinkle too :)

阿嫲

“阿嫲，买啦买啦。袜自己吾钱。鲁收起来啦。买啦买啦.”
“押啦。收起来。阿嫲给鲁。阿嫲给鲁。”

我知道爸爸刚刚给阿嫲一些钱，让她把现钱带在口袋里，有想要的东西可以自己买。爸爸一转身，阿嫲马上回房（可能回去把钱收好吧）然后静悄悄溜进我的房里，硬硬把薄薄的纸片钱塞进我的手里。一张五十令吉的青色纸币，角对角整整齐齐地折得美美，小心翼翼地从阿嫲手心传到我的掌心，温温的。

这个五十块很大，很大。

cooked sambal "4-edge-bean"

photo by zixin, 8Oct2011.

You've done a good job

晚安，今天發現，每個混濁的日子，至少都留一秒給自己，和自己的說聲辛苦了，明天也繼續加油。在終點前，盡可能活得更有色彩些。 ---五月天阿信

Just a simple status posted up there:

Good night; Just notice it today that for each and every busy-messy day, leave at least one second for me-self, tell him that: You've done a good job, and gambateh for tomorrow. Before reaching the 'deadline', let's give it the best to live a colourful life. ---by ashin from Mayday