不用讲，你也知道我现在很想念他们。

Day 18

-to the person that you wish you could be


Dear you,

I will never forget how much you have influenced the 15-year-old me.
Like a mold, I tried to learn the way you deal with life.

何(なん)とかなんさ

‘There must be a way, don't worry’. You like saying the phrase at all time.

When difficulties come to me, I wish to told myself: 何(なん)とかなんさ.
When choices (that I have no idea on which to be picked) lye in front of me; 何(なん)とかなんさ.
When I can’t foresee the way I am heading for; 何(なん)とかなんさ.
When critics and misunderstandings let me down; 何(なん)とかなんさ.
When burdens almost put me to death; 何(なん)とかなんさ.

Basically, I’m lazy enough so I thought I might easily carry on with it; don't think so much, things will find their way. Anyway, things don’t go on as we wish all the time, aren’t they?
There are sometimes that I’m down, disappointed, feeling hurt and breaking down to cry (try not to be seen, of course), especially during that period when progesterone and oestrogen are being highly (perhaps overwhelmed) synthesized.

After all, when I turn back and look at those times, I can’t help but to laugh at myself. hahax.

What on earth that forced me to make clarification or decision or definition out of this wholly one-bunch-messing-up world?! Why must I crack my brain off to figure out things of ‘should’ and ‘shouldn’t’, or to get myself follow the stern principle although sometimes it is better to follow what’s in my mind? Hahax.

‘I am not on the evil side, neither do I on the good’s.’ You did say that. Within black and white, you have chosen none of them, neither you choose the colour of grey. Maybe, you never notice but in my point of view, you stand as in your own colour. I longs to discover my colour too. Perhaps, I’ll find it one day.

And I like the way you see others. In your eyes, everything and everyone is pretty in its own way. There is nothing as ‘you’re wrong and I’m right’. Indeed, as long as one is not killing/murdering another one, nothing is a definite wrong. I hope the world I see from my eyes is as pretty as yours. I really hope so.

For an average person like me, things go off tract sometimes.
Just recently, I have been trying my best to solve a problem as perfect as it can be. Somehow, there were blames and critics. Well, I did feel sad tho. And I told myself: nah~ 何(なん)とかなんさ. Maybe it would be better if I find out more bout this incident. But I'm just too lazy to think and figure out the reasons or solutions or whatever. Have I become alike to you more and more each day? Hahax. no idea.

I bet you must have not heard of my name before and will probably feel weird to receive a letter from a person you never knew. To be honest, I don't think you will ever read this, but I can't find any other better way to reach for you. And I am scared that you can't read English too..ermm, maybe I shall start learning Japanese...We'll see.

Wow, it's a long letter. I hope you won't be bored reading it. Do send my regards to Anna, HoruHoru, ChocoLove, Ren, Ryu, Manta and others. Ohya, don't forget Amidamaru too :)

That's all for now, I think. Oh, there's another thing, will u mind to do me a favor by telling steve: Day18 is not for you la..hahax. Thanks.

Till we meet (if we can) , take care and all da best.




a big fan of yours,
tzexin

I am very happy.

I am very happy.
I am very happy since this afternoon.
I am very happy since this afternoon as I was with my dear friends.

I am very happy.
I am very happy that we watched a movie together.
I am very happy that we watched a movie together though 'Harry Potter & bla bla' is not very nice.

I am very happy.
I am very happy in the middle of the night.
I am very happy in the middle of the night till I can't really sleep now.

I am very happy.
Can you feel my happiness now?

那天，我去看歌台。

老妈一到台下马上就跟那里的一个aunty站一边去讲话；
我跟老爸站在距离舞台很远的后面，中间隔着很多uncle aunty。

我一直 很好奇，为什么舞台的音响每次都要放到超级大声，连speaker都破声掉才甘愿。
我问老爸：他们是怕天上的老神仙们听不到吖？
老爸看着我，沉思了很久才弯下身来：‘你说什么吖？’ 我靠～

除了70年代的福建曲目，uncle aunty都很喜欢唱费玉清的歌；
一只手抓麦克风，唱到climacs另一只手就要随着不断往上飙的高音向上提，手掌最后停在额头上面的高度。
然后，每首歌的结尾最好就是有那种咯咯咯咯咯咯咯的抖音，像是我每次用盐水漱口的时候发出的声音。

也不是全部歌手都是老uncle aunty，年轻一点的几乎都是衣服布料很节省、魔鬼身材天使脸孔、化大浓妆的辣妹。
全身上下穿得一闪一闪亮晶晶，伴着不停扭动的翘臂，白白嫩嫩的肚挤眼显得格外诱人。

大多数时候，年轻一辈的目标好像都只是旁边那些档口跟摊位。

photo by zixin 2010

没有西瓜的西瓜汤、玉蜀黍、珍珠奶茶、烧鱼、烤鸡翅膀、鱿鱼蕹菜（我的最爱）、肉干（也是我超爱的）、泰国出产的台湾香肠…………



站了近一小时，好不容易老妈的三姑六婆话家常八卦完了，
老爸说：走lur..回家lur.

而我也已经被背后那支大龙香的浓烟熏得满脸泪痕，
黑黑的灰烬一点一点贴满了衣襟。

3 Idiots

3 Idiots - a Bollywood comedy film staring by Aamir Khan, Kareena Kapoor and Madhavan.
Watching bollywood film again after so long...hahax.

The story line is pretty simple and commonly seen, but it seeps into me somehow.
Sorry but I can't really tell the feeling that wonders me when I see the 3 students struggle to survive through their university lives.
It's definitely a movie for students, for universities' students especially.
Watch it, and you may feel the same as I did.
Ohya, I watched it just a day after the last paper of my Final Exam, in case you may want to know....how 'don't-know-how-to-tell' the feeling was to watch this movie at that moment.

I like this song: Give me some sunshine
sad case, youtube doesn't allow me to post it here.
Same goes to the Official Trailer .
You may not be understanding the language, but you'll get the meaning of the song for sure :)

'Aal is wel', that's what the guy(grabbing his blue butts) always tell his buddies.

Lay your hand above your left chest, pat it gently, and tell it: hey brother, aal is wel, don't worry.

aal is wel. yea, all is well.

Post-Exam

Days have been busy ever since the Final Exam was over.
A lot of things I have encountered and gone through.
Some got me into tears and some made me laugh.
Many thanks to those who had accompanied me all this while.
I am super-ly greatful that you guys were there for those moments.
Again, Thank You.

And not forgetting the awesome food that I have tried these days.
So =D for being taken by those awesome ppl and being surprised for every single (new) discovery.hahax.

Day1.(straight after the last paper of Finals)
如家小厨-Zhia's Kitchen Restaurant, located just beside the Kim Gary at Pyramid.
Their soup's' are so much home-made-feel.so ngam!

Day2.
Planned to go Klang for the famous Bak Kut Teh. Too bad, there was no more bak left when we reach there at about 1pm. ended up eating at the nearby Mamak Restaurant. according to uncle, the Mamak restaurant is famous too...as many ppl go there when they miss the Bak Kut Teh (Our case, for example T.T) pity sanxiu and stef, came so far from shah alam to eat mamak food which they eat almost everyday at intek.kesian.

*Stef stayed overnight at my place that night. we discovered cheap books (with 50-70% off !!) at the Popular Warehouse Sale at Summit the next day which got us into hyperactive stage the whole night :)
I need that and I'm really pleased that you were there, TQ stef.

Day3.
猪肉面-Pork mee, one of the famous hawker food at SS15.
The mee is quite nice, but it will be nicer if the taoke-saw(taoke's wife) could be more polite. she was so damn 'diao'(吊). and wish I won't have to wait for more than 1 hour to get my mee done the next time T.T

德国咸猪手(ham zhu shao..hah!)- Roast-pork-leg. at 老港，Lao Gang Chinese Food Restaurant in Puchong. You can never imagine how perfect the roasted pork was. though it was just the part of a pig's hind leg, it was huge and perfectly roasted till very crunchy. Uncle kept feeding me with the super-thick-edipose layer(fat) attached with the crunchy skin. beh~tahan~la !!

Day4
Dang dang! the J Cool yogurt ice-cream. there is one at Pyramid. Go and try it out =D
Kamxia for taking me there, kamxia kamxia- to Sinling 四姐 and Liling.

photo by zixin 2010

photo by zixin 2010

Sad case: these food are killing me softly.
but good news is: I am going home !
Can't wait to hug my bed.muakz.

となりのトトロ

I need to start working now. Seriously.

I love you, girls =)

Somehow I love to recall things that have gone pass, things that are already in past tense.
ermm..perhaps, it will be more accurate to say I love to call for things that is beyond my reach now.
Is it a bad habit?
..............................Who knows wor.

No doubt I miss my dad and mum. and my brother.
I miss my cousins, my grandpaS, grandmaS, uncles and aunts.
I miss all the gatherings that we had.
I miss my friends back at hometown there.
I miss the food. I miss my car. I miss the places.

but yeyey, look around me now.

Nearest to me- Chai vege. She is such a funny and so-lame girl. She has a glowing-in-the-dark poster of a pretty woman above her bed now. and just recently, she likes to hang things under the sun, eg: books, spectacles, slippers..all sorts of things except clothes. according to her, those organisms cry and are all wet. cute she.

Then the Eva Siao. She is definately a siao girl. never see her face-with-no-laughter, even when the time ppl tembak her in facebook, this is the best thing of her. she can laugh when she is on facebook, on twitter, reading, talking, driving, having her exams, and at most when eating. she smiles to the food. yes, she does. cute she.

oh, here comes the autotroph-YanHui. She is directionless and super-slow-react-able. she is labeled: coffee, cornflakes, fengyou. so and so. ohya, she always find her things on the clothes hanger recently. the happiest moment of hers when she is on phone talking to her boyfriend a.k.a daddy, i guess. cute she.

and Zoey. aha, her bahagia always come in front of our door, very frequently indeed. and guess what, she tells me that she doesn't like to wear dress. but hey, I bet she will be super pretty in dress with her super-nice body :D how I know? I am her ex-bed-partner ma..hahax, cute she.

not to forget ChuYee-the girl that bad-influenced me the most. I did feel a bit lost when she is not in Casa Subang anymore. So, I ended up to be staying up in pyramid till very late and always come back casa alone. pitty me. somehow, both of us are facebook-relationships-engaged here in Subang.hahax.we talk a alot, from shopping to relationships to guys to bra to underwear, you name it. she is pretty in her way. cute she.

and here come my recent hang-out gang in monash: poHyee, poHkeng, Ra-chel and her lover Vivienne.

poHyee- what a lovely girl. the whole world is so lovely and wonderful whenever she talks to me. even in msn chat, I can see the smiling face appear in every line of the words. She will just come randomly : 'xin xin~'. and some influence from her I think, I am so frequent to say : I love you and I miss you recently. the day is just so nice when I turn in my msn and see a messege saying: xin xin..muakz :) cute she.

poHkeng- the 2nd poH. she doesn't really like when I call her : poHkeng. anyway, she is now immune to the name after all. She is the one who lent me her phone to play games during lectures- best thing to do during lectures. and yea, I like her. cute she.

Ra-chel- the K-pop lover whose boyfriend is a Mayday-lover too. Well, she is so-damn-pretty. I wanted to say that ever since I saw her during MUFY. She has her own way of humour. 'se se de'. she likes to blame all the 'sengek' thought on me although she is the one who came out with all those yellow-jokes. she say i m the 'catalyst'. LOL. cute she.

Vivienne- the lover of Rachel. they sleep together, eat together, go to class together, still they have so many things to talk bout.....in facebook. and vivienne, she is actually 'diam-diam ubi berisi'. she will be sitting beside when the san-pa start chatting and when the activation energy is somehow reached..she can talk a lot! including those 'jokes'. haiz, cute she.



I will never know how lucky I am now till I look around and I found them. and yea, there are others too, only that I can't name it one by one.
I am depressed of my chemistry paper. yes I am.
But instead of spending time regreting for the paper, it will be a better approach to blog about these girls, I think.

Girls, you are wonderful.
I want to love you all more and more! -^ ^-


p/s: Good luck for the up-coming paper !

I was bored. thats why.

I was bored.
So, I made up this:

photo by zixin 2010

Then slowly I made up this also:

photo by zixin 2010

Then, I got even bored so I poured all in:

photo by zixin 2010

Then?
Then, I finished up the stars and nescafe and got back to work.

*should try it with kopi O next time.the colour will be even nice,I think :)

what colour is the sea?

photo by 五月天DNA巡迴演唱會 - 香港站

--常常我闭着眼睛 听到了海的呼吸 是你温柔的蓝色潮汐 告诉我: 没关系。
Sometimes, I close my eyes and listen to the snoring of sea breeze;
and I know, everything will be just fine.

photo by zixin 2010

Well, night in Subang Jaya is not that bad too. isn't it? :)

Re: The 30 Days Letter Challenge

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favourite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

So, like what you have seen here, the list is long; long enough to keep me busy.
The list has been circulating around few friends of mine and somehow I find it a briliant idea -^ ^-
Karmen's ---> RE: The 30 Days Letter Challenge
Ben's ---> 30 days letters challenge
Wenyi's ---> Re: 30 Days Letters Challenge
Steve's ---> 30 days letters challenge???

Steve said his letters are not in a continuous form so it should be called the '30 letters' challenge'. So am I but I prefer the name '30 Days Letters Challenge'.
Well, wenyi's reason of taking the challenge is: she was bored. So am I though I am now half way through my sem1 finals.
Another reason for me doing this :to get me into writting ABC (okay, perhaps its better to say typing ABC).

So,

30 Days Letters Challenge

-on its way :)

Template changed

Accidentally deleted some part of the template's html.
And there goes the old template.
And I wasn't angry. I didn't fruss up...no...no..no... of course no la.
u don't believe, aren't u (agrrrrrr?!)
Anyway, this is the new template, for temporary's use maybe.
And I am tired, so bye bye & good night.



Still don't believe that I didn't go mad ?!
Have a look at this: Happy now?
Good night then. *yawn~

我的ipod曲目

曾经，
因为爱着你的爱　因为梦着你的梦 所以悲伤着你的悲伤　幸福着你的幸福
因为路过你的路　因为苦过你的苦 所以快乐着你的快乐　追逐着你的追逐；

长大了以后发现
外面的世界很精彩 却也发现 外面的世界很无奈；

而且有一点残忍，
把我的梦摇醒了　宣布幸福不会来了；

那么，
既然爱你不能言语　只能微笑哭泣 让我从此忘了你；

一直都认为，
我要控制我自己　不会让谁看见我哭泣 装作漠不关心你　不愿想起你　怪自己没勇气；

然后借由
时间累积　这盛夏的果实　回忆里寂寞的香气，我要试着离开你　不要再想你　
虽然这并不是我本意。



苏芮《牵手》－ 齐豫《外面的世界》－ 孙燕姿《开始懂了》－ 许茹芸《独角戏》－ 张柏芝《星语心愿》－ 莫文蔚《盛夏的果实》

在前天夜里拼ENV时，六首歌就酱不断重复。



或许那只是一个不经意的问候，却可以把那些沉淀的思念给搅浊。
我承认，我还是放不下。

第168场演唱会

自youtube看完全集的第168场演唱会，满脑子就不由自主的充斥着那舞台上的每一幕。
一路从2010年追回1999年台北市立体育场内他们当初第一场的大型演唱会，
豁然发现这些年来，时间在他们每个人、每首歌都留下了痕迹。

看那时主唱阿信3首歌没唱完就顶不住沙哑的声音；
再看看吉他手石头拼命摇头的陶醉；
鼓手冠佑（彦明）不断转过头看乐谱的不熟练；
队长+吉他手怪兽面对观众不到3句的开场白；
当然还有贝司手玛莎圆圆胖胖的娃娃脸:)

11年后，
先看看这几个男人：胖了（嘻！）
再看看这个可以在同一个stadium连开3天演唱会的乐团，
凭着不间断的摇滚和冲力他们也可以操控更宽更大的舞台。
少了当初的羞涩，却多了分成熟。

五月天第168场演唱会－轧车&志明与春娇

没有太多的对白，也没有耀丽的穿装，吉他也就只有那4把。
整个场景有点美国Eagle's California ‘feel’，哈！
唯一遗憾就只是……
…………………………youtube的音质超级让人失望 ；
重复了好几遍，总算给我弄清4把吉他的音旋和鼓拍 T.T

youtube's 五月天第168场演唱会(part1)由此入

问我当初为何爱上这五个又不是很帅，唱歌耍乐器一下子就飙臭汗的男人，
真的只能回你3个字：不知道。