Back at home town

Just fetch Stef at the bus stop, 11 o'clock at night, back from KL. Then, we had a little chat while she having her supper at the nasi lemak stall (rm2 for 3 packets, I wonder how they make their profit).

Oi, STEVE OOI, it is your job to drive her okay..;only if u were back here. and all others out there, remember our night-routines? I'm back at hometown for few days, dislike Stef, it's my looong,long,loooooong summer break >:) yet, the empty-ness just fell on when I drove Stef across the town, passing by the hang-out spots..dot dot dot..and dot dot dot..and dot dot dot..



Photo taken during the ran-away off to Melacca. looks a little bit odd, wasn't it? some friends suggested some editing to make it looks more emo-ish. neh, I tried..and this is what I can do best :b

Stefanie, one of the only few persons I know I can rely on in this whole damn world. Perhaps, we don't keep in contact very often, less messaging, less skype, less FB msg; perhaps, she may not be right beside me when I am down, panic, sad; and neither do I stand by her side when she is in need. But she is my best friend, what to do? I am always grateful to have a buddie like her; just like those we have always seen in the loves-drama (Korean especially), the main actress and her best friend....alright, alright, I watched too much drama recently.

Should I...learn from this photo? next time, to take this kinna photo, I should/ or I have to tilt the head a little bit and move the body aside a little bit, just like how the other girl looked like in the photo. Perhaps, the emo-effects will be better ?let's try next time.

11.11.11

11.11.11; without noticing, we went out for the post exam-celebration on that very day. If it was not because of the friends and what we did on that day, that very day would be just as normal as every single day always be. No/never a date is ever be repeated, every date is special by its own and with someone doing something on that someday, that very date becomes meaningful.

We had fun, we had joy, we had laughter. We enjoyed that day very much, didn't we? If you were not, at least I was. I really love your accompanies, sincerely.

Something comes along and something went by. When we were having fun, we never know what is going to happen at the next moment. Two of us had decided to leave the house and to stay a little nearer to the Uni. Believe it or not, we never have the plan to cause troubles to others who stay. But, troubles caused and I am not able to pretend as if nothing happens. So I try, I try my best to minimize the consequences that come along. To blame or not to blame, I can't control; but to do what I can do at this far. If someone were to ask the reasons for what I've done at the first place, all I can tell is just: I did that for my own good. Selfish? perhaps, I am. I'm sorry for if it hurts anyone.

Wish all happiness and happy holiday;
Sincerely.

2nd last paper

Gonna pray hard to pass my Cell Metabolism. But if it was not because of her, I don't even have a single chance to pass. Sometimes, I feel as if I've let somebody down; I should do better. It has been long since the last time I had this kinna thought.

Last paper coming tomorrow. Faster finish la.

Faster finish la.

Days are black and white during this exam period. Sucks. Neh -,- can't wait to get the last paper done. Hm, don't take me wrong; I havn't ready yet for the 2 upcoming papers. Argh. I miss the colours.

愚驿

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这篇章是分开打的，所以可能会有上文不接下文的现象出现(……我好像每次都没有连接性的打字）。本来不应该在这里发闷骚，可是我已经眼钉钉（奇怪的用词。。有很奇怪吗？）对着电脑萤幕两个多小时，该丢进脑袋的cell metabolism一个字也没读进去。呵……到底怎么了。耳朵可能真的被耳屎塞满了，现在什么都听不进去；除了……（对啦，我知道你知道我下面要讲什么，可是我还是要讲）……五月天。

真是的。
i love mayday.yes, i do.

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跟着游戏规则，我忙着学着成长；每次雨后都会期待着彩虹，所以我打开了窗，却只看到窗外的灼熱闪光；所谓的彩虹不過就只是光嘛。如果给我选个笔名，就给我叫《愚驿》；我想我会很喜欢这个名字。

……老爸之前也是有个笔名，像是叫《山同》还是“山……什么的”；明天好好问问他。

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干它赛的，为什么不来马来西亚上映呐。

给电影人的情书

多少人爱你遗留银幕的风采；多少人爱你遗世独立的姿态
你永远的童真 赤子的心态；孤芳自赏的无奈
谁明白你细心隐藏的悲哀；谁瞭解你褪色脸上的缅怀
你天衣无缝的瀟洒 心底的害怕；慢慢渗出了苍白；
你苦苦地追求永恒；生活却颠簸 无常 遗憾
你傻傻地追求完美；却一直给误会 给伤害 给放弃 给责备
何悲 何爱 何必去愁与苦，何必笑骂恨与爱
人间不过是你寄身之处，银河里才是你灵魂的徜徉地
人间不过是你无形的梦，偶然留下的梦 尘世梦

以身外身 做梦银亮色的梦
以身外身 做梦中梦

给电影人的情书－蔡琴

以身外身，笑看人生梦中银亮色的梦。有几个人能真的做到。若这真的是梦一场，何必为痛苦不愉快的事情太认真？

何悲 何爱 何必去愁与苦，何必笑骂恨与爱
人间不过是你寄身之处，银河里才是你灵魂的徜徉地
人间不过是你无形的梦，偶然留下的梦 尘世梦

若这是梦中无限可能的虚幻，为何不对那些坚持的执着更放肆些？

For another 6 days, my Year2Semester 1 will officially come to an end. With the last paper of Final examination, everything that I learn in Year2 will end there. When I walk out the examination hall, will I be crying or will I smile? I got no idea.

This is a hard semester. For 4 months, my life was filled with assignments, tests, reports, experiments and now the examinations. For all students, it is a norm, isn't it? To say that I suffer a lot, is it really true? All students have assignments; all students sit for exams, what the hell on earth that YOU have the excuse to say 'suffer'? And what are YOU complaining about??

The only difference between all students and I will always be the ways we treat the tasks, the attitudes. Have YOU done what YOU should be doing all this while? Did YOU really do? I've been always telling myself to change, to improve, to be a better man. But did YOU make it? Did YOU ever mean what YOU said? When time flies, when things can't be turned around, I will tell myself not to look back, but to look forward. I believe I learn lessons and that I will never ever walk on the same path. YOU really do? If it is so, what happen now? Why are YOU here??

I don't like this and neither YOU. So I tell YOU to stop it. But can YOU ?


original singer: Teresa Teng.

Grave of Fireflies

要坚强。要成长。

Each time when I read the PM message I left on the MSN account,
I'll take a deep breath and lay a pat on my shoulder;
"see, you gonna be much better soon"
Then, I draw a big smile on my face, from ear to ear :)

A leap to Malacca

Malacca Town

Like all people say, it is a historical town where you usually will go to see the red house, museums, some left over stones and bricks from last century so and so bla and bla. Well, that is not the main point of what I want to tell. Malacca, to me, is a place full of FOOD ! yes, FOOD FOOD !!

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

This Stefanie, nothing good, besides kuat rayau and kuat makan. First thing I met her at the Jonker Street, she brought me the chicken rice balls. Proudly said, she was manage to get herself and Sahan the treat after a super super long queue. As I reached Malacca a little bit late after them (I was supposed to be joining them at the Bandar Tasik Selatan bus terminal to take the same bus down to Malacca Sentral but I woke up late in the morning, so..dot dot dot..and you know la har), she so thoughtfully to da bao 5 balls of the rice and few pieces of the chicken, leave it up for me. Aww..so nice. *although I feel that it is famous only for the 'ball' shape of the rice, not really for the taste of it*

Later on, we moved on to tract food along the town. Not going into details. This was one of it: the Satay Celup. Well....you see, the queue was super super super duper long and worst, it was static ! people going in the shop and take their time celup celup eat and eat; It took about half an hour to move few centimeters in front. So, we gave up and went in another shop which I supposed not famous because there was no queue (people) at all. But, it was still the satay celup. Hence, we tried the so called satay celup although it was not really that famous celup. And I found it okay okay la, it was a little bit like our Penang Lok Lok.

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

Then, we went back to Jonker Street and when it was at night, muahahaha...hohohoho......food food food....there was food everywhere ! One of the food that I tried: the Durian Puffs; Awww....it was so yummy ! I love it ~! Gonna get a bite on it if I happened to get back to Malacca :)

It was quite a random trip you see. We got no plan and no particular place to go. Only thing we hold on to: We eat anywhere we can :b

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

photo by zixin, 23Oct2011

Aww..I met GiGi (I supposed to be spelled like this) in the public city bus while I was on my way to the Red House. And then we made friends. Hahax. Could you imagine, she is just 19, and she is on her 3-months' travel ! she has gone to Singapore, Penang; and will move to Hatyai, Sri Lanka and bla bla..(not to forget, Sahan is from Sri Langka and this cute boy is just 18 !) Damn sad, me and Stef were the oldest, and I am even older than Stef !

It was GiGi's 19th birthday that day, and so we sang a loud Happy Birthday song for her in the middle of the road !


okay..I've done quite a lot of crazy things over the day. I even went in the Church (St Francis Xavier’s Church) for the very 1st time and made a lot of stories out from there, don't bother to say it here. And finally, we reached Pudu in the middle of the night. End of the day. I played my day and enjoyed their accompany :)

Should get back to study now. The people around me are getting scary when exams are around the corner. huhaiz......

Malacca was pretty at night

----Praying hard that my mum will not kill me when she knows this.




Despite all the stress and worries for the Finals (which will be in a week's time), I went to Malacca. By bus by random and with random friends :b

Will come back for more after I do some studies.











photo by zixin, Malacca, 23Oct2011

hi, Peter.

I used to be falling asleep, wishing that he would ever come to my window.



Peter..~ flying over the sky and bring me along to his Neverland..~fighting over the evil Hook and laugh over the tickering crocodile.. he was the superhero of mine. Even now, he is still the little boy whom I believe is flying around somewhere in the sky of Neverland. Once a while, he may be visiting my world. But he won't stay for too long, just long enough for me to say Hi.



But Peter had never come to my window, as my mum will not let the window open when I sleep. If I open my window, will you come visit me, Peter? and I'll like to meet Tinkle too :)

阿嫲

“阿嫲，买啦买啦。袜自己吾钱。鲁收起来啦。买啦买啦.”
“押啦。收起来。阿嫲给鲁。阿嫲给鲁。”

我知道爸爸刚刚给阿嫲一些钱，让她把现钱带在口袋里，有想要的东西可以自己买。爸爸一转身，阿嫲马上回房（可能回去把钱收好吧）然后静悄悄溜进我的房里，硬硬把薄薄的纸片钱塞进我的手里。一张五十令吉的青色纸币，角对角整整齐齐地折得美美，小心翼翼地从阿嫲手心传到我的掌心，温温的。

这个五十块很大，很大。

cooked sambal "4-edge-bean"

photo by zixin, 8Oct2011.

You've done a good job

晚安，今天發現，每個混濁的日子，至少都留一秒給自己，和自己的說聲辛苦了，明天也繼續加油。在終點前，盡可能活得更有色彩些。 ---五月天阿信

Just a simple status posted up there:

Good night; Just notice it today that for each and every busy-messy day, leave at least one second for me-self, tell him that: You've done a good job, and gambateh for tomorrow. Before reaching the 'deadline', let's give it the best to live a colourful life. ---by ashin from Mayday

Moonlight 月光

常常听说不如意十有八九
学学风就能轻盈又自由
悲与恨都放手用真爱来歌颂
愿你我都能平安的度过

月光－杨培安

we used to heard about unfortunate and unfavourable moments that often take place;
perhaps, we'll learn to be light and free as breeze.
perhaps, we'll let go of all sorrows and hatred to welcome life and love;
I wish you and me, we'll walk through and come along, peacefully.

当风筝飞上天空

OAOA是嬰兒的啼哭，是摩天輪的樣子，是太陽與山脈的形狀，是對著空谷的吶喊，是沒有語言的希望，是在風裡面寫下此刻自己的呼喊......。

五月天阿信

每一次每一次感觉累的时候，感觉自己很无用的时候，那五个人的地方总是我的出路。最近又有这样的感觉了。不喜欢，非常地不喜欢。所以，这里，我又在这里了。

最近这些老男孩又开始胡闹了。又是电影宣传，又是新专辑制作，没办法，几个老男孩堆在一起实在无聊，一个两个在面子书上招摇过市，又欺又诈，竟然玩起躲猫猫游戏起来，害人哭笑不得。时间好像回到当这几个还是大男孩的时候，那时冠佑跟石头都还没有结婚，疯起来可以玩到没天没夜，就算在演唱会上也是没有尺寸限制级地玩。……有些想念那些也是这么疯狂的兔崽子们……真的很喜欢那些无法无天的放纵，持久的友谊，真的很喜欢。

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现在我在家里。在这里，我最大。是的，我最大。我要怎样，我说了算。是的，我说了算。任何东西，都别想管我。

听过几米吗？

我在树上点亮一盏光 幽冷的夜晚变得热烘烘的 所有的情绪也不在躲藏 快乐、悲伤、忧愁、烦躁 随着烛光融化树叶飘落 消失无踪 一盏光 两盏光 三盏光 四盏光…… 心渐渐安静下来 回到自己的方向 这个时刻多么美好 我在树上摇摇撒撒地 迎接天明的第一瞬微光

几米

是该回到自己的方向。或许在外迷失了，可在这里，都说了我最大，我要在树上迎接天明的第一瞬微光，有意见吗？

这一场，不但有几米，还有五月天，《星空》。

好吧，我开始期待了。

知足《追梦3DNA》

那一夜，有一双手在黑漆漆的半空中摇晃，两支手掌张开然后握紧然后张开然后握紧－－序。

距离是那么近，感触是那么深；怪兽的吉他，石头；玛莎的汗水，冠佑；阿信。终于兑现的诺言，我看了一场期待很久很久的电影。那分感动收在这里，在心里；其他的，不想多说。

当一阵风吹來 风筝飞上天空
為了你而祈祷 而祝福 而感动
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头
才发现 笑着哭 最痛

－－五月天《知足》

那一幕，银白色的纸屑漫天飞挡住了舞台上的主角，我伸出手像是要挥掉眼前的障碍却又不自觉地张开手像是握住了一张张的纸片；然后，眼泪还是沿着脸颊滑了下来。

Lazy Monday

NothingMuch- I was there, alone, early in the morning, 5 o'clock. Was I scared? hm, a bit.

photo by zixin, Sept2011.

转角处，路牌下，僻静的凌晨让人的思绪混浊。何去何从，鬼知道。
可我现在不想动不想理。行吗？

With my best friend

I love MAYDAY ; and I love you, STEF ; forever, I promised.

Mid-sem-Break-ing

NothingMuch- The sky looks fake.

photo by zixin, Sept2011

Because it's too blue.
And yeah; I watched Blue Smurf today and am feeling smurfy good :>

3D MAYDAY pending.....
I just miss them so much.

NothingMuch- Haze a lot these days.

photo by zixin, 12Sept2011, from my unit

Eva said she is Heliophobic. haha.

NOthingMuch- Happy mooncake fest !

photo by zixin, 01Sept2011, Bukit Panorama, Kuantan

yea, I am at peace now, out of no where.
Though these few days are gonna be tough with assignments n test, we have to stay strong.

p/s: look what I got for myself just now :) :)

明天的太阳会很美丽

天空已经是黑色的，但是没有很黑，因为有许多很小可是堆在一起就很多的尘粒弥漫在吉隆坡的上空。虽然下午下了一场雨，刚才傍晚的天空没有因此而晴朗，反而只有我被雨水淋得一身清爽。



虽然不知道是睡不够头脑眼睛不协调还是左右两边的眼睛打鸟害我在马路上跌了个狗吃屎；
虽然硬硬一拐一拐拐到学校跟朋友策划催人变老的实验，痛到我一路落泪，在无人的厕所测斯底里地呐喊（解压解痛）；
虽然晚上一边去医院打针照X光抓药还要一边担心赶不完的功课；
虽然医生打针不小心打到让我敏感的painkiller，然后再打一支针（三支管）的adrenaline;
虽然我被adrenaline rush搞到心跳加速、呼吸急促、脑袋缺氧到要爆裂、手脚僵硬、身体抽筋到向内缩成一粒球、怕死怕到一直哭；
虽然之后两天的后移症搞到我心跳异常快、讲话讲快一点就气喘；
虽然功课最后做完，另外一堆又来；

我还活着。


虽然父母担心却到不了，不过我身边有一群很好的人：
亲爱的室友eva撇下功课彻夜载着我的痛脚去找诊所，之后又载着那只肿脚上下课；
叔叔一家为了我，尤其是我脸青青唇白地被推出来，晚餐也没吃地在医院替我担心；
可爱的pohyee做了月饼蛋糕让我馋嘴；
朋友们体贴问候'你的脚ok吗？'，热心地帮忙跑腿；
就算我觉得走太慢阻碍交通，全程替我担心到完的yanhui还是不离不弃地跟在我后面，陪我慢慢一步一步走到现在；


是的，不完美的我一直都很好死地幸运。感恩。

戴上耳机，肩膀放松，双手张开；身体里的血液跟着跳跃，我很快乐地抱住那章年轻舞动的节奏。

功课的烦恼暂时闪一边去。肿到很难看的脚板暂时也变得美丽。 （刚刚踢到床脚，现在黑青了。）

刚刚又下了一场不是很大的雨，明天的天空或许会晴朗，太阳或许会很灿烂；就像那天登上关丹林明山看到的日出一样:)

photo by zixin, 01Sept2011, Bukit Panorama, Kuantan
photo by zixin, 01Sept2011, Bukit Panorama, Kuantan
photo by zixin, 01Sept2011, Bukit Panorama, Kuantan
photo by zixin, 01Sept2011, Bukit Panorama, Kuantan
photo by zixin, 01Sept2011, Bukit Panorama, Kuantan

我承认我是想炫耀我看见的这个无与伦比美丽的太阳 ;D

Any other world

These days have not been easy. But hey, whose days are light and easy?
For all of you working hard out there, for me, for my friends, for the ones I love and I care;

'HOLD on , STRIVE on and MOVE on' !

Any other World - MIKA

In any other world, You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl, Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it, And let yourself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone, But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am, I had to give up my defences

So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

- I love MIKA. I love Freddie. nevertheless, I love MAYDAY.

Early mooncake

NothingMuch - I would like to love you more and more.

photo by zixin, 8Sept2011

It's love from dear pohyee, sweet and nice.
I'll like to try it again.
And, I hope I can make it for you too :)......

NothingMuch - I need a break.

photo by zixin, 31Aug2011, Teluk Cempedak, Kuantan

Just wanna have another walk on it.
好想再去吹吹风。

What can you see ?

NothingMuch - I shall post more photos after I die die finish the works.

photo by zixin, 1Sept2011

因缘而识

那天下午太阳不是很晒。

头顶上的冷气喷口呼呼，呼呼地吹，我感觉背后靠近肩膀的两块肉凉凉的。对面三两个（像是）孟加拉的男子（不帅）时不时地向我这里瞄过来，是在看我隔壁蓬头（散乱）长发的马来小姐吗？我很清楚知道身上这件吊带小背心衷心得很，没有让我走光。甩了甩头，赤裸着的肩膀慢慢靠向后头，碰到玻璃窗的时候，还是不小心被冻到一下下。

地铁继续奔驰着。

刚刚经历一场文学的洗礼，感谢黄智鸿博士让我参观了这有史以来第一次踏进的书院，品茶，聊现实聊理想聊生活；老师不论从哪边看都是那么有文学味道。这是一种机遇，一个因缘。感恩清哥帮我搭的缘。感恩。

巴生，敬学书院

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

清哥在车站送我上车，仔细看了这个许久不见的脸孔，发现他眼里的世界跟我的决然不一样。广州的生活让他如蛟龙的云雨，大学生涯过的多姿多彩，做人处世都跟以前不一样的说；这段时间让他成长了不少。

我们，会不会到达那个属于我的目的地呐？那里会是个怎样的地方？哈，不想了。

那天的地铁有很多大包小包的马来同胞，应该是回家过节吧。里边穿插着一个印度安哥，他一只手抓着椅子的扶把，另一只手靠在胸前，紧紧抱着一束（也可能是一支）花。紫色的花纸把花儿都遮住了，我只看见安哥时不时就低头闻闻花香的动作猜到里头应该是花。他抱得很紧，就像我抱住那天的感动，紧紧地一样抱住。

Marry-go-round

NothingMuch- aiks, I am typing on my labs again, and mum said it will make me sterile >.<

photo by zixin, 30Aug2011

It's a gift delivered from far Melbourne, from dear sis-in-law, wife to Michael, the lucky man. The chain is simply as lovely as she is, I love the little tiny crafted-marry-go-round very very much, as well as the small horse-ie :) I'm going to your place in this coming Dec, looking forward very eagerly to it, see you soon !

photo by zixin, 30Aug2011

一圈圈，它绕着看不见的中心转动，一圈又一圈； 想要回头探视却只能望着前方无止尽地驱动； 跟着旋律，它已经忘记了疲惫是什么梦； 这节奏，什么时候才可以停止下来？

It's part of journey

NothingMuch- I traveled a lot today.

photo by zixin,27Aug2011

I have a great journey. Thank you and I'll miss you :)

deadly Yoga....

NothingMuch- My legs feel awful now.

photo by zixin,26Aug2011

This will go on for every Friday....and I heard there will be more & more physical stretching when we move along..awwwwe..
Anyway, I think I am loving it :)

I don't wanna be late

NothingMuch - I need to wake up on time

photo by zixin, 25Aug2011

And so I bought a new-normal-ringing alarm clock :)

檀香

NothingMuch - 有麝自然香，何必当风立

photo by zixin,23Aug2011

尺有所短，寸有所长。请包容我臃肿的笨拙，别吼我。

Living up in Uni

NothingMuch - It's an act, and when time pass, you'll see.

photo by zixin, 22Aug2011

When I walk to Uni, I carried my Doraemon umbrella. Only when I laid it down, I saw the greenish of tree shade. It's pretty (hot) actually.

photo by zixin, 22Aug2011

The experiment for crop science over these 2 weeks. The flowers are dieing, and that is the result that we want to observe. How sad.

photo by zixin, 22Aug2011

But at least, it was once so beautiful.