因缘而识

那天下午太阳不是很晒。

头顶上的冷气喷口呼呼，呼呼地吹，我感觉背后靠近肩膀的两块肉凉凉的。对面三两个（像是）孟加拉的男子（不帅）时不时地向我这里瞄过来，是在看我隔壁蓬头（散乱）长发的马来小姐吗？我很清楚知道身上这件吊带小背心衷心得很，没有让我走光。甩了甩头，赤裸着的肩膀慢慢靠向后头，碰到玻璃窗的时候，还是不小心被冻到一下下。

地铁继续奔驰着。

刚刚经历一场文学的洗礼，感谢黄智鸿博士让我参观了这有史以来第一次踏进的书院，品茶，聊现实聊理想聊生活；老师不论从哪边看都是那么有文学味道。这是一种机遇，一个因缘。感恩清哥帮我搭的缘。感恩。

巴生，敬学书院

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

photo by zixin, 27Aug2011

清哥在车站送我上车，仔细看了这个许久不见的脸孔，发现他眼里的世界跟我的决然不一样。广州的生活让他如蛟龙的云雨，大学生涯过的多姿多彩，做人处世都跟以前不一样的说；这段时间让他成长了不少。

我们，会不会到达那个属于我的目的地呐？那里会是个怎样的地方？哈，不想了。

那天的地铁有很多大包小包的马来同胞，应该是回家过节吧。里边穿插着一个印度安哥，他一只手抓着椅子的扶把，另一只手靠在胸前，紧紧抱着一束（也可能是一支）花。紫色的花纸把花儿都遮住了，我只看见安哥时不时就低头闻闻花香的动作猜到里头应该是花。他抱得很紧，就像我抱住那天的感动，紧紧地一样抱住。

Marry-go-round

NothingMuch- aiks, I am typing on my labs again, and mum said it will make me sterile >.<

photo by zixin, 30Aug2011

It's a gift delivered from far Melbourne, from dear sis-in-law, wife to Michael, the lucky man. The chain is simply as lovely as she is, I love the little tiny crafted-marry-go-round very very much, as well as the small horse-ie :) I'm going to your place in this coming Dec, looking forward very eagerly to it, see you soon !

photo by zixin, 30Aug2011

一圈圈，它绕着看不见的中心转动，一圈又一圈； 想要回头探视却只能望着前方无止尽地驱动； 跟着旋律，它已经忘记了疲惫是什么梦； 这节奏，什么时候才可以停止下来？

It's part of journey

NothingMuch- I traveled a lot today.

photo by zixin,27Aug2011

I have a great journey. Thank you and I'll miss you :)

deadly Yoga....

NothingMuch- My legs feel awful now.

photo by zixin,26Aug2011

This will go on for every Friday....and I heard there will be more & more physical stretching when we move along..awwwwe..
Anyway, I think I am loving it :)

I don't wanna be late

NothingMuch - I need to wake up on time

photo by zixin, 25Aug2011

And so I bought a new-normal-ringing alarm clock :)

檀香

NothingMuch - 有麝自然香，何必当风立

photo by zixin,23Aug2011

尺有所短，寸有所长。请包容我臃肿的笨拙，别吼我。

Living up in Uni

NothingMuch - It's an act, and when time pass, you'll see.

photo by zixin, 22Aug2011

When I walk to Uni, I carried my Doraemon umbrella. Only when I laid it down, I saw the greenish of tree shade. It's pretty (hot) actually.

photo by zixin, 22Aug2011

The experiment for crop science over these 2 weeks. The flowers are dieing, and that is the result that we want to observe. How sad.

photo by zixin, 22Aug2011

But at least, it was once so beautiful.

下个周末，快点来吧！

---对不起，最近没有心情不好的时候我都不blog。

最近都没怎么好好生活。
每晚合上眼睛的时候都会跟自己说：快点睡，再不睡就不够时间睡了；
早上睁开眼睛第一件想的东西是：闹钟怎么没响，又赖床了！
洗澡的时候，对着莲蓬头喃喃自语地在数:今天得完成么 么 么 么……
然后，喝每天第一杯米露时都在想：今天午餐吃什么好？
………………
每一天的每一天，这样子的节奏都不断循环着。


下个星期就放假了（自己放自己假），虽然老妈不让回去，我还可以去投靠小叔。呵呵，有点想念小婶的菜了。然后呵，清哥回到港口来住一阵子，已经说好要去烦他了，哈。听说他落脚的地方是一间书院，好像去参观参观。
还有…………就是呵，我想多拍一些照片。

photo credits: Jun Xiang Goh

就像他一样，拍很多很多喜欢的照片:)


最近喜欢上弯弯的漫画。原来很久以前就喜欢她的作品，可到现在才认识她本尊。慢是慢了点，总好过没有：
弯弯


五月天的电影要上映了……耶耶耶耶耶耶耶耶！

我开始期待下个周末了。

falling on my knees

--I feel stupid recently, especially when I see clever people.

How I wish there are arms there for me too. Things are not going as they once were. And that Sarah sang my heart out,

There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day

The nights are very tiring for me just recently. Though I know, there's nothing much I can do besides keep working on things that should be done. But just a moment, only a moment,

I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

Though I think positively (hopefully), there are times that I feel demotivated. Well, it will be pretty straight forward to say the word out, then how about the lyrics:

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time

However,

It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

然后天空开始下雨

可恨的这群臭老油，千里迢迢给我打电话就只为跟我报告晚上要打壁搂。说什么非常难过因为我不在，特地打来听我的声音，说着说着竟然播起那首歌。明明知道我受不得刺激！给我等着，你们一条两条，我忍。

好不容易今年的国庆竟然给我等到了一个星期的假期。偏偏老妈不让回。老爸也是。很毒啊你们。

脑子里还是想着那群幼崽。火锅是吧？诅咒火锅有锅没有火！看你们还怎么吃。我真的是要把你们一条一条拔出来烫烧了吃。就算你这个回到怡保，全身上下包完我也会杀到师训去把你拔出来。不等我回去就搭飞机往外飞的，给我小心一点。加拿大，拉斯维加斯，伯利恒，木更津市，别以为很难找，一张地图就可以搞定你。别让我存到钱。还有你，很快就会回到武吉加南的艾么游，很快你就会自己送上门来，我不怕修理不到你！

选择一百八仙纯正华文骂人是因为这群欠骂的十个有八个华文都是烂咖；谷歌翻译的话，有本事就试试，看完不晕我请你喝茶。毕竟，我不想让你们知道，我（没有）很想你们。

photo by JunXiang Goh

总是期待雨后的天晴
天晴之后的夕阳
灿烂的辉煌 煞是美丽
为什么想要留住的美
总是在刹那之后消失
我舍不得
明明讲好只留住当下
可我想要的当下 很多很多
所以我眯起眼凝视
让你们都留在眼角边
然后开始期待下一次
然后天空开始下雨

Why say that?

There was time when I passed by the lingerie shops and I wondered, how on earth these small pieces of fabrics can go up to hundreds? You're wearing inside and no one will gonna see it (exclusive to some cases), why spend so much on them? Until one day, sis answered my question by saying: "Be good to our bodies. Even if no one else appreciate them, at least we love them more than anything."

photo by zixin,Aug2011,Monash Women's office

I'd happily say that : I love myself. And it has nothing to do with the word 'female' or 'women'. Everyone has the rights to be loved, both men and women. So guys, you can now take a board and write on it:

LOVE YOUR BODY LOVE YOURSELF :)

And there was this annual charity event held in Monash. It was a good deed after all, to raise funds helping those unfortunates. A slogan caught my attention :

I choose not to discriminate

Besides contributing 10 bucks, I've done nothing. So, I think I should keep my mouth shut.


When you say: I choose not to discriminate; what actually have you said about yourselves?

漠然

曾经依恋而坚持而执着。没有很潇洒的不顾一切，也没有坦荡的至死不渝。说到底，或许只是一种习惯性地想念。长大些、淡定些，才明了生命的完整不为一个人，生活的方程也不为一件事。当忙碌的每一天不再允许无谓的徘徊，只有决然往前。是无奈是坦然，现已漠然。

photo by zixin,July2011

星沙

U will always be my best friend, no matter how long and how far we are apart. though we may not see each other often, but I will always remember that I have a lovely friend like you.
-----from stef, 16Feb2009, 9.23pm

This is the oldest message that I have in my phone inbox. And right now, I want to tell you the exact same thing.

U will always be my best friend, no matter how long and how far we are apart. though we may not see each other often, but I will always remember that I have a lovely friend like you.
-----from tzexin, 6FAug2011, 11.37pm


第一年我们同桌的时候，记不记得你的桌子的抽屉里塞了一盒开过的牛奶，里面剩下一半，另一半早在前一年放长假前被你喝进肚子里。当时，我们是怎么捏着鼻子把它夹到垃圾桶里，还记得吗？那时的我完全没有预料到几年后的我们会是现在这个样子的。不知怎么，这时候我特别想念我们同桌的那三年。

这回，你从台湾给我带回来的手信是一个小瓶子里的星沙。
有点好奇地上网谷歌了有关星沙的身世。所有的根据都不同，讲的星沙大概就是一种小生物的躯壳吧。而它背后还有故事呐。


说在很久很久之前，雨神有一个非常非常美丽的女儿，她爱上了只见过一面的星之子。
至那次相见过后，雨之女就再也没有见到过星之子。牵肠挂肚的思念让她鼓足了勇气走进星星王国，去寻找她心目中的白马王子。终于，在宇宙之颠，让她找到了倾心已久的他。不久，星之子也爱怜上了这个美丽的女孩子，他们坠入了甜蜜的爱河之中。可是，天界是不可以恋爱的。当雨神知到这件事后，勃然大怒，不准自己的女儿再与星之见面。
要知到爱情的力量多伟大？！当然是谁也分不开他们的。于是他们决定离开天界，可他们知道雨神是不会轻易放过他们的。雨神是掌管水域的天神，每一滴雨水都是他的眼睛，只要他下令，雨水便可轻而易举地找到他们。所以他们绞尽脑汁想出了一个办法，就是两个人分别化成星星和雨水结合在一起，幻化成了一颗颗极小极小亮晶晶的星星，分散在世界的每一个角落。这样，他们的心就紧紧的联系在了一起，而且可以躲过雨神的眼睛。
可雨神毕竟是众水之首，他又怎会不知道他们那些小计量？于是一个漆黑的夜晚，空气中还不时的刮着阴森的寒风……
雨神调动了所有的水域，去追捕那些极小极小的星星。整个世界顿时瓢泼大雨，几乎所有的小星星都被雨滴一一搜捕出来，只有余下很小很小一部分没有找到。他们落在了沙滩上，溶进了细细的沙子里。因为结合后的小星星本身就具有一些水份，所以时间一久，星星与细沙便巧妙的融合在了一起，也便成了大家口中所说的星星沙。

还有人说当流星带着人们美好的心愿坠入了太平洋中，随着海水的冲击，漫漫的就变成了有棱有角的星沙，找到这样的星沙会交上好运，愿望就能实现。

photo by zixin, Aug2011

你说：里面白白一粒一粒小小粒的是星沙，可以许愿的咯 :)

他们说星沙象征幸运和幸福。我要把它分作一半给你。
还有我许了愿，愿我们做一辈子的好朋友。


生命中有你真好。感恩。

grateful- for the porriage & dinner. 感恩。

photo by zixin, Aug2011

Chuyee's porridge.
Ingredients: 鸡蛋、皮蛋、咸蛋； bonus:干贝。
Though she ponteng the class today, but she came when the class ended, just to hand me the porridge. Looking into her eyes, I'm grateful that she is here. I won't care bout how others commenting on her, because I know who she is deep inside.


4th Sis's free dinner.
Venue: Kim Gary
This is the first time we meet for this semester. Though I feel a bit lost when she moved out from Sunway, I'm still happy to hear that she is doing well with her job. And she treated me using her salary just now. One day, I will use MY money to treat you too, I promised. Always love and miss you.


There are 2 things that are essential to keep me alive: FOOD and SLEEP, I had the previous one oledi and so next, I will be gone to bed very soon after this.

For the meals, for the love, Thank you.
感恩。

生活。

生活逐渐回归到正常（乏味）的规律后，部落格也不禁难过起来，一篇比一篇沮丧，闻起来简直就像在办祭奠般，悼念欢乐假期的离去，还说愿君精神永在（可惜没有）。

听的歌曲也越来越旧时代化。原本就不怎么新潮，现在更好料，跟老爸音乐交流完全没有问题。我是喜欢他们唱出的那种沧桑，无奈；或许一些是热忱，是期许；这不是唱歌技巧好、谱曲好听就可以带过的。歌词，如果你有不经意地滑过一两首那年代的曲子，不妨停下脚步听听。文字，有时候会比曲子更渗入人心。

打从这学期开始，没有一天不是活在感恩中。肚子饿的时候，eva载我找吃。感恩。老天保佑我被不错的demo带。感恩。朋友起飞前大老远跑来相见，友谊可贵。感恩。今天，下午突然一场莫名其妙的雨，一群室友留下等我等到下午六点才载我回宿舍。感恩。其实，生到这么好命，我还可以埋怨什么。

报告功课自然无比多（乏味），但应该还过得去。

今天偶然看见一句"踮起脚尖，我是不是可以更靠近幸福一点?"
唔……
要怎么说呢？
嗯……

或许你可以试试稍微弯弯两边的膝盖，仰望，就在刚刚头顶还顶得到的地方，你是不是可以感觉刚刚的你比现在更靠近幸福一点？

The Rose

The Rose - Lyrics and Song Music by Amanda Mc Broom

Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed

It's the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun's love, in the spring
Becomes the rose



繁华的频率逐渐把最初衷的诚恳淹没。炽热的艳阳已去，留下一片弥蒙。
那日的暖阳，是不是也在期待发芽成长的那天。